WW is a drag

Yesterday and today I just didn't want to count points. I feel guilty for not counting, but I have the same feelings that I had in February. I just don't want to do this any more. I want to be at goal and not have this struggle.
I dug out my pre-fat summer clothes and they won't fit until I lose 15-20 more pounds. I didn't meet my work out goals this week either. I did have a couple of good strength training sessions, but my cardio was less than I had planned and I only took one spinning class.
Lately I have been feeling so unhappy. Actually longer than lately. I thought being fat and out of shape was what was making me feeling this way, but a this point I don't think weighing 150 is going to make me feel any happier. Today is a particularly bad day. It could because I am so tired or PMS. I need a good cry. And possibly therapy.
I think I would like to look for a new job. Things are so unstable at work and it isn't really a good place to work any more. I have also been thinking about going to school. I wish I was going to be 31 instead of 41. 41 seems too old to go to school and start a new career. If I did decide to go to school, I think I would do it online. I would like to do something creative, like interior design, home staging, event planning, professional organizer or work for a builder.
I'm sorry that Rob has to put up with my bad behavior, but I can't seem to shake the constant bad mood and I take it out on him.

April Fool

I forgot until just now that it was April Fools day. I didn't play any tricks on Rob.
Last night was a nice time. We went to the movies. The last movie I saw in the theater was Fahrenheit 911. We went to Inside Man. Very good movie. I really liked it and so did Rob.
Today we ran errands and went out for lunch. I decided that I wasn't going to care about points today so I didn't worry about what I ordered. I had grilled margarita chicken with rice and black beans. Really yummy. And probably not too bad of a choice, but certainly more points than I would usually have. Well, now I feel guilty.
Yesterday at my weigh-in I was exactly the same as last week. I stayed on points all week and worked out. It was a bummer to not see a loss. Better than a gain I suppose.
Daylight Saving time starts tonight. It's going to be really hard to get up next week. I always have a hard time adjusting to the time change.
Rob threw a curve ball today. A new development is being built a few miles from our house and he suggested that we seriously consider building a new house. Part of me is excited to look into and possibly do it, but the other part of me thinks we shouldn't do it.
It was a nice day. I was a bit cranky at times, but I did enjoy spending time with Rob both today and last night.