What's happiness?

I'm going to be 41 in a couple months and I sometimes feel like I'm wasting my life. I don't have a job that I love. I would like to. I don't travel. I would like to. I thought once I lost weight and started feeling healthier that I would be happier. I'm not. Life is passing me by and I'm sitting in the basement while it does.
On the Sopranos last week, Tony was in a dream sequence and his character in the dream was 46 and showing signs of alzheimers in a brain scan. My first though was if something like that happened to me or Rob I would really regret how we have lived our lives so far. We didn't even meet until we were 35 so we already missed 15 years of our adult life that we could have had together. We don't really do much together. Rob works late so I'm in bed when he gets home. And I've gotten so used to that, that when he does come home early, I sometimes feel annoyed that he has disrupted my schedule. My schedule of sitting in the basement watching tv and going to bed early. Not much of a schedule. Rob seem perfectly content to lay on the couch in front of the tv hour after hour after hour. I'm not anymore. I used to play on volleyball and softball teams with friends and meet friends for supper or drinks, I went rock climbing, I went biking, I took weekend road trips. I want to do stuff again.
Monday Chrisanna was telling me how she wanted to take a trip for her 30th birthday. She asked what I did for my "big 0" birthdays. I don't remember what I did on my 30th, so obviously nothing great and for my 40th I had big hopes, but again, nothing. Rob had told me a couple months in advance that he wanted to take me on a trip, but he didn't follow through. We built a deck instead, but even a local weekend trip would have been nice. Chrisanna asked how I felt about not doing anything. I was bummed, but I guess I can try again for my 50th. She also said I was lucky not to have anything to prevent us from doing things (meaning kids, although she thinks I'm missing out on the best thing ever by not being a mom). Well enough whinning.
I've been doing really well getting back on the weight loss track. I stopped drinking caffeine, but I still drink soda. I have worked out all but 3 days in March. I have been staying on points. I'm not losing as fast as I would like, but at least it's slowly coming off again. I should be able to lose 15 pounds before my year anniversary at WW in late June. If I change my goal weight to my pre-fat weight I am 19 pounds away. If I continue to my original goal I am 27 pounds away.
I wore new clothes today and felt good in them. The pants and shirt fit better than any of the clothes I have been wearing.