August 14

Today I had an interview with a consulting company. I had almost decided not to go because I thought the recruiter didn't understand my background and was thinking I was a BSA. As it turns out, she did think I was a BSA, but once I explained my experience she said that they have job opportunities for my role too. She also suggested that I change my resume so my job title was more specific to my role. After talking with her, I felt so much better. I've been feeling really depressed about not working and not even having any interviews or interest in my skills. Then when I got home I had an e-mail from a Target recruiter who wanted to have an informational phone interview with me this afternoon. I just finished talking with her and she is going to pass on what she learned with a few people (or so she said). She also said it would be 2-3 weeks before I heard back from them. Then I got a call from Carla, who is my boss I guess, for the recording secretary job. She said she reviewed my notes from last week and they looked great. The only issues she found were that I should have spelled the work Avenue and not abbreviated it. She said I am so good I could easily do this now on my own. But I still have to do a few more practice meetings. Secretly I was hoping she would tell me my worked sucked so I could tell her it wasn't going to work out. I have a feeling that I will hate doing this. It's interesting in the sense I find out what is going on in the city, but some of the council people just ramble on and that irritates me and I find myself not paying attention. Which is bad if I'm hired to take meeting minutes.
Rob and I did some errands this weekend. It was nice to get out of the house for a bit. We went to lunch, shopping and to supper. I found a really nice suit to wear for interviews.
Rob said that he thought the reason I was feeling so lost and bored is because I don't have a routine. I think he is right. So starting tomorrow I'm going to put myself on a schedule. I'm going to get up by 7am, go to the club or ride my bike. I'm going to clean 1 part of the house each morning when I get back from riding or working out. I'm going to shower and run errands if needed or go to the library or something, just to get out of the house for a bit. Then I'm going to go on line and search for jobs. I'm going to cook meals. This won't fill up my entire day, but it will certainly help.
And after today's meeting and phone calls, I'm feeling better about everything and feeling more optimistic about finding a job. And today is the first day in a long time that I don't feel like snacking and eating whatever I feel like. I think that feeling bad about myself has really put me on a destructive path. I haven't really cared what I ate or how much, I haven't been exercising or really even taking care of myself. It was nice to dress up today and leave the house for a reason.
I'm looking forward to working again. Although, I'm sure once I'm working, I'll wish I had time off. The grass is always greener....