First day back

Today was my first day at work since I got laid off. I had been working from home. I felt like a loser being there. I told 3 people, but only because they flat out asked me. Debra offered to talk to her boss and ask him to find a position for me and one of the directors seemed worried that I would be gone so I'm guessing that he may try to find a way to keep me. Our admin was sad too. I told all 3 three that I didn't think I wanted to stay. Our admin said that the VP of our dept is getting a lot of pressure from above and had been really stressed out and taking it out on the directors. I definitely don't want to stay with kind of atmosphere.
Rob has been very supportive. He isn't panicking like I thought he might. He wants me to do what I think is best for me. I really appreciate that and not feeling pressure to stay at my current company. I'm sure I'll be much happier someplace else.
Tomorrow I have a meeting with a management consultant company to help with resume writing and interviewing skills. I would really like to get my resume up to snuf so I can start applying.
Lisa passed her boards so she is now an RN. Congrats to her. I hope she finds a job quickly.
I counted points today. First time in a month. Today when I was feeling bad and embarrassed about losing my job, I felt bad about how I looked as well. I felt fat and sloppy and yucky.
I went to the doctor a few weeks ago about my horrendous moods and the doctor put me on Celexa. I think it is really helping. I feel much less irritated by everyday annoyances. My period is due soon so that should be the real test. I should remember to ask Rob if he has noticed a difference in my moods and attitude.