My first entry. I hope to use this space as a self help forum. I want to be able to hold myself accountable for meeting my health and fitness goals. I started on a weight loss journey in June of 2005. I've lost 70 pounds so far and hope to lose 25 more. I'm using the weight watchers point system and it all seemed so easy until about a month ago. Over the Christmas weekend I decided that I wasn't going to count points, I was going to eat what I wanted. I did and I don't think I really did too badly. I didn't eat half as much as I would have a year ago and many things didn't really taste as good as they used to. But doing that really triggered something in me and I have been struggling since then. I was feeling really good about myself. I was looking fit and much smaller than last year. But now that I'm struggling to keep myself on track, I look in the mirror and see fat and unhappy again. I haven't gained any weight, but I haven't lost any either. I've been having a hard time getting myself to the club too. I know if I went to the club, the desire to eat would deminish a lot. My husband has also become a less positive influence. For the first several months he was so supportive and helpful. Now he thinks I have lost enough weight and he is no longer being as supportive. He complains that I'm too thin and bony. Which I'm not. According to the BMI charts I am still at a 26.9, which is almost 2 points into the "overweight" section of the chart.
January is almost over and I really haven't set any firm goals for myself. I need to really think about what I want to accomplish this year and set the goals. Then find the desire and determination to work toward them. I've gotten this far, I can't allow myself to fail now.